“Each second we live is a new and unique moment of the universe, a moment that will never be again. And what do we teach our children? We teach them that two and two make four, and that Paris is the capital of France. When will we also teach them what they are? We should say to each of them: Do you know what you are? You are a marvel. You are unique. In all the years that have passed, there has never been another child like you. Your legs, your arms, your clever fingers, the way you move. You may become a Shakespeare, a Michelangelo, a Beethoven. You have the capacity for anything. Yes, you are a marvel. And when you grow up, can you then harm another who is, like you, a marvel?" Pablo Picasso

Mike has been playing with me together at some gigs and this is his band Maya. Definitely worth checking them out. He's the guitarist with the cute white rabbit hat haha.
Otherwise I'm doing pretty good. I'm hardly ever at home, lots of nights out, rehearsals, Uni. Good times.

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BE. OUT. THERE.

"There are many wonderful things that will never be done if you do not do them." – Charles D. Gill

Bridging Modules. Not sure what to think about it yet. Well, it's part of the game if you wanna progress to the BA. So let's play.
I like snakes. I like to hold them in my arms. Even though I found myself in some dangerous situations but hey. Not all of them are poisonous.

Crazy week. Epic nights out. Great fun. Great advert.



If you really want something, you shouldn't only rely on others.You have to make sure you'll get it. If you're undecided what to do or don't care too much about it, then you can rely on others and see what happens. That's the way I'm doing it. Otherwise I wouldn't have seen great things or missed out on others. And that's why I got to see Jamie XX last sunday. If it wasn't me, I wouldn't have seen him. There was this Simple Things Festival going on in Bristol, unfortunately it was too expensive so we tried to get on the guestlist and waited the whole day for an answer, unsuccessful. That meant like the end of it, my friends wanted to go home but I said no. Before I haven't tried anything possible I wasn't going to give up. I left my friends, walked to the venue, got me a wristband for free from other guys on the street, queued up for an hour and as the security chased everybody off because of overcrowding, I stayed, came up with a life and death story and got in. The only one. Yes. Nothing's impossible.

"Mistakes are the portals of discovery." – James Joyce

‎"If the wind will not serve, take to the oars." – Latin Proverb

Yesterday I went to a gig to the O2 Academy in Bristol to see four bands as halfway through the gig the power cut out and all the people were kicked out the building and the whole thing got cancelled. While standing there in a back yard and waiting for something to happen, Bring me the Horizon who didn't get the chance to play, suddenly climbed onto a shipping container outside and decided to start an acoustic set spontaneously in front of 1600 fans. Fucking epic. Kind of historical moment, a once in a life time experience, I mean how often does it happen to witness a hardcore band sitting on a container and playing  their screaming songs in acoustic for the very first time?! Never haha. And this only shows BMTH cared enough for their fans to stay and to try making it up for us for something they had no control over instead of just buggering off. Obviously everybody was gutted not being able to see every band but this performance made my night really! Thanks guys!   


Later on Sam from the Archtiects joined in!

A certain kind of heroism, needed to keep your dream afloat, is wonderful but not enough. A dual heroism is required: courageous dream-upholding and courageous reality testing.

Yesterday first day in Bristol again, lekker braai with friends. Very enjoyable. And we discovered something fascinating on the tree hanging, motionless. Two poplar hawk moths mating. Never seen it before. I forgot my camera but found another picture on the internet.

" Mach dir nicht zu viele Köpfe, am End weißte net mehr welcher deiner ist." Ryan de Rama

A friend with whom I travelled last year to Morocco came up with this wordplay. Translated word by word it means "don't make yourself too many heads (don't get too caught up thinking about it), at the end you won't even know which one is yours." I think that's brilliant, very true.
I love spending time in the sun and getting a tan. Sun is therapy. Tomorrow flying back to Bristol.

Don't follow your dreams

CHASE THEM

Ordinary Madness

Shaved

Right. Went away for few days to see some friends in Munich. They are so mad. They've got this special kind of humour. And that's something what supplies my heart with pure joy. To run around the whole day and to laugh. Doing and saying mad things out of the blue, randomly, just because you're funny. Impulsive behaviour. Not to care, to be silly, to be free, to be child again. This weekend was covered by laughs. Home is where my friends are.

It started on friday. Me and Laura bought a bavaria ticket which you are free to use all day long through the entire county, so we took any random train, got off anywhere and got on anywhere without any plan nor aim and all that for the whole day. We got around pretty much. So much fun. Much better than sitting in a cafe and talking. Something different. At night watching The Life Cycles Movie in a movie theater. Awesome! Afterwards going out, connections, VIP treatment, hell yes.

Next two days Anni and Aga time. I arrived at 2 in the afternoon, literally the first thing we did, was going to the supermarket and buying booze. Celebrating our friendship. Sitting outside in the green and drinking beer. Getting tipsy in the blazing sun. Walking through the city during the day, wine, beer and crazy ideas and actions. Standard. No money for the hairdresser, let's do it ourselves. Back in the flat, shaving my head.    

That's my drawing skills

Dancing till dead through the night till the morning, losing each other, finding each other after six hours accidentally, hilarious situations, sleeping. Hangover, delivery service, movies. Midnight chips around the corner, 2 o'clock beer, serious talk. It's always like that. Wether with or without alcohol. Ordinary madness. Welcome to my life.

Indeed. I've decided to be happy. Even though not everything is perfect. There is ALWAYS a negative and positive side of things. I've spent a life pretty much in hell till I literally run away to the other side of the world and couldn't believe there is such a thing as happiness, beauty and appreciation. But what I also realised is that you can not run away from your problems, even when it might not have been your fault and your escaped the place, it's still inside of you. Back then I even got a bad conscience everytime a tiny moment of joy stroked me, imagine, sick isn't it. So I've been working on what life has destroyed for me.Wasn't much left and it took me some time to cure my soul . But I got over it. I've forgiven and found peace with the past. Of course I still have days full of sorrow, doubts, insecurities, downs, confusion and pain from time to time. That's normal. That's part of the deal. But I no longer let it rule over my life. They just sneak in and happen occasionally and if they see they have no chance to stay forever, they disappear eventually.

There are moments in life that make you

there are moments in life that break you

there are moments in life that influence you

there are moments in life that change you

there are moments in life that challenge you

there are moments in life that inspire you

there are moments in life that crush you

and there are moments in life that destroy you

there are moments in life of total peace and

there are moments in life of total chaos.

Yin and Yang

nothing is permanent, everything is temporary.

Change.Evolution

And what I also learned is not to let your wounds turn you into someone you are not. That's a very important aspect I think. Now there are people they see me smiling and assume I must have no idea about life nor hard times because I seem to be happy all the time. And they look at you as only they know the true life. Now exactly those people still have to learn a lot and didn't get what life is about. It's not about sitting there, pulling a face and drowning in misery and self-pitty and envy the luck of others. And it's certainly not about thinking of having the right to speak to me this way. If I'm happy and you're not, it's not my fault. It's probably just because it hurts to see someone happy. Though when I'm sad and see somebody happy, I'm still happy for this person but that's probably just a character thing. Anyway Jeez, you're the only one responsible for your own luck! It's about making the most out of it, the best out of it, looking at the bright side, it's already hard enough, make it better, easier for you, enjoy. Every one will die one day but then why not die happy or at least die trying?     

"Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone." Pablo Picasso

I've posted some stunning treehouse photos in my last blog. Here's the link for all of them if you're as amazed as I am TREEHOUSES.

Swing to the moon, even if you miss him

you're gonna land on the stars.

Had something like a date yesterday, exciting times :) !



Other than that I found this incredible site full of treehouses. Seriously, a gyspy waggon and a treehouse and my life is complete. I couldn't decide which one is better. Every single one is sick. Here just a few.

EVERY SHADOW IS EVIDENCE OF SUN

HELL YES

Amazing song! So good it inspired me to write an own song. Found it on another blog and can't believe I haven't heard of the Life Cycles Movie earlier. "Chance" brought it about, they're gonna have a Life Cycles Movie Night presented by SCOTT in Munich in about 2 weeks time in this awesome film theater at Sendlinger Tor !!! A special unique occasion. Preordered tickets straight away. Yeah!

Otherwise, spent the weekend at my sister's. First time I saw her new home. Love it. Perfect weather, perfect house. She lives with her boyfriend in a farmhouse, it was a cowhouse in the past and therefore the beams in the walls and the centuries-old stony floor. Everything so rustic. And handmade bed and cupboard. A weekend full of laughs, playing UFC, watching Shutter Island, So so nice.

HAHAHAHA this is sooo cute, it made me laugh really hard 

As I'm pretty much confined to bed, I have the time to find thousands of things on the internet. Too many things, I always find something interesting. But maybe first my friend's legend declaration of love to me, best one ever. It's too good. THIS made me smile forever. Love you!      

"And apart from that...you know what you are for me..?! You are everything what "Family guy" is for me...there are many series I like...there's even a bunch which I call my favourites, but there is only one which makes me piss my pants...there's only one show which makes me laugh out loud and cry like a baby! You are that for me! I was sitting here during the day and started laughing like a maniac when I read your previous message...thanks for making me laugh, always! Gosh, and the story about your .......it's so not funny, but told by you it's just awesome! I like the fact that we can laugh about shit like that for ages...makes it a bit more worth it, doesn't it?!" 

 
Never seen so many different effects pedals at once, seen it on some live videos by this band. Nice!  

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." Muriel Strode

Today it's Mouissa Zeimer's turn, 86 years old.
"No judging. Not having any demand. To accept, knowing even the most terrible things, knowing you can't understand them, you can't explain them but not to deny the step forward, union, to find the best there is because it's inside everyone. There's high and low, we sometimes hurt but that's also on of my motus, to not hurt on purpose. What I passed on to my children, is first to know how to look, how to listen. There's so many things to hear, so many things to see. And then 3 or 4 essential things. Not to lie, not because it's not moral. Because it's so complicated to lie. You have to remember so much and at the end you're always trapped. Secondly, not to envy and I applied it playing various games, since there's no limit. You get lost in envy, totally lost. You forget what you are, you forget what you want. And then not be a coward, not to hurt someone regard yourself. Go straight. What's going to be, may be."

"The purpose of my life it's to end without being a weight,to keep my dignity and to be respected even in my failures. And I learned one thing from life. It's that we have to be happy with what we have which doesn't mean being poor and say "I feel good here!" At Cartiers, I came in once, "Listen it's wonderful what you have, can I? I just want to look, I can't buy anything, just look." They let me look, they showed me extraordinary precious pieces, I was so happy. Ah, that's really something, he said. I came out rich. Could I have everything, I would have said, " Yes, why don't I have that one.. " But I was rich which all I had seen that I would never have been able to buy."

ha, gotta love this video! EPIC!

Dogboarding from DANIELS on Vimeo.

My hero of the day is Bruno Lucchio Dino Ferrato Hansen. 34 years old, he's sailing around the world and living in a wheelchair on a yacht. He's biggest dream is to climb a tree.

"The last time someone asked me about my biggest fear, I was sitting on a yacht off Sumatra and I told him that my biggest fear was losing my legs. Three months later I had a car accident and broke my back and basically lost my legs. So my biggest fear now, so I've learnt, is not to have a biggest fear, to let it go."

"Do I feel free? Very free. I feel I can die tomorrow and I'll have done what I needed to do on the earth. Not that I want to die tomorrow but I'm not afraid of dying and I think that's what sets a person free."

"My message to the planet is, be happy, keep striving, never give up and there is no such word as 'can't', anything can be done and I think anything can be done with joy. And I think one of the biggest things is appreciation. Appreciate what you have, at all times. After 7 years of being in a wheelchair, I've done more in life being in a chair than out of one. I still surf, I sail the world, I free-dive, after many people said I couldn't do that. I think it comes from connecting with nature, connecting with the energy of life. Because we're all disabled in some way on the planet: spiritually, mentally or physically. I got the easy part."

I DREAM FOR A LIVING

To not dare is to have already lost. We should seek out ambitious, even unrealistic things because things only happen when we dream. And Pablo Picasso said " if you know exactly what you're going to do, what is the point of doing it?" Very true. You never can be entirely sure what happens next. Nothing wrong about being a bit prepared though, it's just you don't really have control over it, you find new things on the way doing it. And to imagine, to dream is only the beginning. Let it happen.Things lead to things. Growing. Circling. Disappearing.Coming back. And the mind is a tricky character. But the trouble for me, I've realised, it's rather other people minds who are sneakily manipulating with their so little knowledge about a heart of gold or the true things in life and without noticing my mind is sliding to this fixed social mind thinking box, I once managed to escape. I need to come back to this place of inner freedom. The invincible radiant happy warm cheeky- smile- being- above- things-there-is-much- more- behind- it assurance inside of me.
Alright, good night my lovers, you should feel lucky to have someone who's waiting for you when you come home, who gives you a cuddle when you need it, who shares your sorrow and fills you with love.
 
Don't need a cash machine to make our days happy loobee loobee loobee loo

‎"I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death."
Leonardo Da Vinci said this centuries ago and I believe I'm such a person.

Other than that, today is Earth Hour!!!! The whole world including million of people, countries, towns and entire cities are switching off their lights for an hour from 20.30 until 21.30 this evening to take a stand, to make a change for a better world. This idea of taking part in this global movement simultaneously with all these people and this communal spirit world -wide makes me so excited, I feel it in the air. Bob Marley would say "One love, one heart. Let's get together and feel alright." Making history together was never so easy, be part of it!

Nemo vir est qui mundum non reddat meliorem

Lying with pyelitis on both sides in bed. Taking super strong drugs and I'm not allowed to move. The doctor described me loooooots of watching TV and reading books haha. Actually in much pain but hey, I'm kinda used to it. People say I look good and assume I must be feeling good too. But that's okay,  I'm just not the person who complains or moans all the time when I feel poorly or tries to catch attention by putting on an agonizing face. I'm more the brave little soldier. Still can't resist the great sun outside, it's too good to spend all day indoors.

Don't be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try.

This band uses folk and chilrden's song and changes them into Deathcore, Electrocore and Fun Metal. They did an acoustic version of " Der kleine Vampir", a kid's book from 1979 about a little vampire. Love it.

Don't waste your youth growing up
This video makes me happy, it's pure beauty. My heart blossoms, it leaves such a fresh after taste. Live it!  

YOUTH from Tommy Petroni on Vimeo.

Where to start! So much happened the last couple of days. Right.

Back in Germany for the holidays. Been at a friend's gig.

15 different shots. Punk and Rock'N'Roll.

Pogo, dancing, laughing. Burning my hand as I tried to set an old coal on fire with my deodorant and lighter. Climbing trees. 

Driving home at sunrise. 

TUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby you look good                                            
I want to see you dance                                       
Let your hair fly                                                  
when you're spinning round                                                              
Let your anger out                                                                                    
and just leave everything else as it is                   
here and now                                                      
with this rythm as a law                                         

You're so not fancy-schmancy                                   
's not something, you're seeing every day               
You're so strange, rare                                         
and that's what I like about you                             
You're putting of your shoes                                 
You want to rock in your socks
Let the anger out
You're looking so good doing it, yeah!

Please, stay like that

don't let yourself be talked into
turning everything around, no!
I'm against it
Where we're going
you don't need no masterplan
The dust at your feet
is greeting you dearly of me, Hey!

Baby, you look good
I want to see you dance!
Baby, you look good
I want to see you dance!
Baby, I want to see you, you
dance, faster and faster!
Baby I want you you you you you!



Every week  we get a "Monday's Vocalist Motivator" Email from our Tutor Martin. This was in my inbox today.

A person who dreams large but doesn’t effectively test reality ends up living in a fantasy world. A person who tests reality well but doesn’t nurture large dreams lives paralyzed in the ordinary world. A person who manages to do both occupies the only heaven heavenly enough to suit our creative soul, a heaven where creative projects are incubated and made manifest in the crucible of reality. From The Van Gogh Blues

My Gig yesterday at Thekla

BBC Introducing was there as well

Chuffed

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important that fear." – Ambrose Redmoon

"Faith dares us to take a step into uncertainty and then pushes us to take yet another step. It takes brutal honestly to admit to ourselves that the future is often unclear. I think there is beauty in being willing to blindly persist through all life has to offer. I would rather hope and trust in tomorrow than arrogantly worry about finding all the answers. Faith asks us to believe in something beyond our own personal pursuits, to push our boundaries. We have been blessed with hearts that know no limit to faith; we can always give a little more of ourselves.

I try to stop and remind myself of this from time to time."

- Joe

"Each of us at some point in our journey goes through times that are hard, and those “bruises” leave an impact on the rest of our lives. We can never completely forget about the darkness we walk through, but we can continue to hope. We can hope for a better tomorrow, a day where the bruises are less noticeable. They will always be a part of us but we can learn from them, grow from them into people we want to be. We hope that these bruises don’t define us, and the truth is that they don’t. They will always be a part of us but never who we are.

We just have to hope and work toward a day when those bruises no longer consume us. To believe in the possibility of a better tomorrow."

- Alyssa

Photos I found on my memory stick, Varia annoyed of me taking pics haha!