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why are you leaving me in the lurch

a friend in need is a friend indeed

I don't wanna believe to be wrong about you

Us vocalists had to lead our Artist Development lesson today and teach all musicians about singing, techniques and stuff. Later on we were splitted up in groups and had to perform an acapella version of any song of choice. Ha! We've chosen The Passenger by Iggy Pop, such a legend. It was quite chaotic, difficult to teach non-singers to sing, but well -done to the others for doing it anyway.   

I tried getting into hospital today, but they won't let me. Need to wait, time I don't have. Maybe you need to die first before anybody understands the grave situation. Thanks anyway for the support Gulli, at least someone I can count on.
People say I must have a very happy life, I always smile at everybody. First at all this should be everybody doing, isn't it just a nice feeling when you talk to somebody and the person is smiling at you? I think it makes a person winsome. And secondly I wish it was true. I'm trying but it's not working out at the moment. I'm letting you know though, every smile is true, I'm not faking it. I'm just not that kind of person who needs to pull an anguished face to get attention and sympathy from others. There is no need for everybody to know about my problems but it doesn't mean you know more about life than me.
I found my cousin today! Haven't seen him since centuries but couldn't stop thinking of him through all the years, he was like disappeared. But the other day my mum gave me a call and said he lives in the UK, just the night after I was dreaming of him. And today I could get hold of him, texted him and he texted me back. We're gonna meet up as soon as possible. So excited, can't tell.

 Come alive.

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. Benjamin Button.