30 March 2011

HAHAHAHA this is sooo cute, it made me laugh really hard 

As I'm pretty much confined to bed, I have the time to find thousands of things on the internet. Too many things, I always find something interesting. But maybe first my friend's legend declaration of love to me, best one ever. It's too good. THIS made me smile forever. Love you!      
"And apart from that...you know what you are for me..?! You are everything what "Family guy" is for me...there are many series I like...there's even a bunch which I call my favourites, but there is only one which makes me piss my pants...there's only one show which makes me laugh out loud and cry like a baby! You are that for me! I was sitting here during the day and started laughing like a maniac when I read your previous message...thanks for making me laugh, always! Gosh, and the story about your .......it's so not funny, but told by you it's just awesome! I like the fact that we can laugh about shit like that for ages...makes it a bit more worth it, doesn't it?!" 
Never seen so many different effects pedals at once, seen it on some live videos by this band. Nice!  

29 March 2011

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." Muriel Strode

Today it's Mouissa Zeimer's turn, 86 years old.
"No judging. Not having any demand. To accept, knowing even the most terrible things, knowing you can't understand them, you can't explain them but not to deny the step forward, union, to find the best there is because it's inside everyone. There's high and low, we sometimes hurt but that's also on of my motus, to not hurt on purpose. What I passed on to my children, is first to know how to look, how to listen. There's so many things to hear, so many things to see. And then 3 or 4 essential things. Not to lie, not because it's not moral. Because it's so complicated to lie. You have to remember so much and at the end you're always trapped. Secondly, not to envy and I applied it playing various games, since there's no limit. You get lost in envy, totally lost. You forget what you are, you forget what you want. And then not be a coward, not to hurt someone regard yourself. Go straight. What's going to be, may be."

"The purpose of my life it's to end without being a weight,to keep my dignity and to be respected even in my failures. And I learned one thing from life. It's that we have to be happy with what we have which doesn't mean being poor and say "I feel good here!" At Cartiers, I came in once, "Listen it's wonderful what you have, can I? I just want to look, I can't buy anything, just look." They let me look, they showed me extraordinary precious pieces, I was so happy. Ah, that's really something, he said. I came out rich. Could I have everything, I would have said, " Yes, why don't I have that one.. " But I was rich which all I had seen that I would never have been able to buy."

ha, gotta love this video! EPIC!

Dogboarding from DANIELS on Vimeo.

28 March 2011

My hero of the day is Bruno Lucchio Dino Ferrato Hansen. 34 years old, he's sailing around the world and living in a wheelchair on a yacht. He's biggest dream is to climb a tree.

"The last time someone asked me about my biggest fear, I was sitting on a yacht off Sumatra and I told him that my biggest fear was losing my legs. Three months later I had a car accident and broke my back and basically lost my legs. So my biggest fear now, so I've learnt, is not to have a biggest fear, to let it go."

"Do I feel free? Very free. I feel I can die tomorrow and I'll have done what I needed to do on the earth. Not that I want to die tomorrow but I'm not afraid of dying and I think that's what sets a person free."

"My message to the planet is, be happy, keep striving, never give up and there is no such word as 'can't', anything can be done and I think anything can be done with joy. And I think one of the biggest things is appreciation. Appreciate what you have, at all times. After 7 years of being in a wheelchair, I've done more in life being in a chair than out of one. I still surf, I sail the world, I free-dive, after many people said I couldn't do that. I think it comes from connecting with nature, connecting with the energy of life. Because we're all disabled in some way on the planet: spiritually, mentally or physically. I got the easy part."

27 March 2011


To not dare is to have already lost. We should seek out ambitious, even unrealistic things because things only happen when we dream. And Pablo Picasso said " if you know exactly what you're going to do, what is the point of doing it?" Very true. You never can be entirely sure what happens next. Nothing wrong about being a bit prepared though, it's just you don't really have control over it, you find new things on the way doing it. And to imagine, to dream is only the beginning. Let it happen.Things lead to things. Growing. Circling. Disappearing.Coming back. And the mind is a tricky character. But the trouble for me, I've realised, it's rather other people minds who are sneakily manipulating with their so little knowledge about a heart of gold or the true things in life and without noticing my mind is sliding to this fixed social mind thinking box, I once managed to escape. I need to come back to this place of inner freedom. The invincible radiant happy warm cheeky- smile- being- above- things-there-is-much- more- behind- it assurance inside of me.
Alright, good night my lovers, you should feel lucky to have someone who's waiting for you when you come home, who gives you a cuddle when you need it, who shares your sorrow and fills you with love.
Don't need a cash machine to make our days happy loobee loobee loobee loo

26 March 2011

‎"I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death."
Leonardo Da Vinci said this centuries ago and I believe I'm such a person.

Other than that, today is Earth Hour!!!! The whole world including million of people, countries, towns and entire cities are switching off their lights for an hour from 20.30 until 21.30 this evening to take a stand, to make a change for a better world. This idea of taking part in this global movement simultaneously with all these people and this communal spirit world -wide makes me so excited, I feel it in the air. Bob Marley would say "One love, one heart. Let's get together and feel alright." Making history together was never so easy, be part of it!

25 March 2011

Nemo vir est qui mundum non reddat meliorem

Lying with pyelitis on both sides in bed. Taking super strong drugs and I'm not allowed to move. The doctor described me loooooots of watching TV and reading books haha. Actually in much pain but hey, I'm kinda used to it. People say I look good and assume I must be feeling good too. But that's okay,  I'm just not the person who complains or moans all the time when I feel poorly or tries to catch attention by putting on an agonizing face. I'm more the brave little soldier. Still can't resist the great sun outside, it's too good to spend all day indoors.

24 March 2011

Don't be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try.

This band uses folk and chilrden's song and changes them into Deathcore, Electrocore and Fun Metal. They did an acoustic version of " Der kleine Vampir", a kid's book from 1979 about a little vampire. Love it.

23 March 2011

Don't waste your youth growing up
This video makes me happy, it's pure beauty. My heart blossoms, it leaves such a fresh after taste. Live it!  

YOUTH from Tommy Petroni on Vimeo.

21 March 2011

Where to start! So much happened the last couple of days. Right.
Back in Germany for the holidays. Been at a friend's gig.
15 different shots. Punk and Rock'N'Roll.
Pogo, dancing, laughing. Burning my hand as I tried to set an old coal on fire with my deodorant and lighter. Climbing trees. 
Driving home at sunrise. 


Baby you look good                                            
I want to see you dance                                       
Let your hair fly                                                  
when you're spinning round                                                              
Let your anger out                                                                                    
and just leave everything else as it is                   
here and now                                                      
with this rythm as a law                                         

You're so not fancy-schmancy                                   
's not something, you're seeing every day               
You're so strange, rare                                         
and that's what I like about you                             
You're putting of your shoes                                 
You want to rock in your socks
Let the anger out
You're looking so good doing it, yeah!

Please, stay like that

don't let yourself be talked into
turning everything around, no!
I'm against it
Where we're going
you don't need no masterplan
The dust at your feet
is greeting you dearly of me, Hey!

Baby, you look good
I want to see you dance!
Baby, you look good
I want to see you dance!
Baby, I want to see you, you
dance, faster and faster!
Baby I want you you you you you!

Every week  we get a "Monday's Vocalist Motivator" Email from our Tutor Martin. This was in my inbox today.

A person who dreams large but doesn’t effectively test reality ends up living in a fantasy world. A person who tests reality well but doesn’t nurture large dreams lives paralyzed in the ordinary world. A person who manages to do both occupies the only heaven heavenly enough to suit our creative soul, a heaven where creative projects are incubated and made manifest in the crucible of reality. From The Van Gogh Blues

16 March 2011

My Gig yesterday at Thekla
BBC Introducing was there as well

13 March 2011

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important that fear." – Ambrose Redmoon

"Faith dares us to take a step into uncertainty and then pushes us to take yet another step. It takes brutal honestly to admit to ourselves that the future is often unclear. I think there is beauty in being willing to blindly persist through all life has to offer. I would rather hope and trust in tomorrow than arrogantly worry about finding all the answers. Faith asks us to believe in something beyond our own personal pursuits, to push our boundaries. We have been blessed with hearts that know no limit to faith; we can always give a little more of ourselves.

I try to stop and remind myself of this from time to time."

- Joe

"Each of us at some point in our journey goes through times that are hard, and those “bruises” leave an impact on the rest of our lives. We can never completely forget about the darkness we walk through, but we can continue to hope. We can hope for a better tomorrow, a day where the bruises are less noticeable. They will always be a part of us but we can learn from them, grow from them into people we want to be. We hope that these bruises don’t define us, and the truth is that they don’t. They will always be a part of us but never who we are.

We just have to hope and work toward a day when those bruises no longer consume us. To believe in the possibility of a better tomorrow."

- Alyssa

Photos I found on my memory stick, Varia annoyed of me taking pics haha! 

10 March 2011

Mayo Egg Strawberry Sandwich with cupcakes,
things you eat in times like these.
Preparing for exams. 

Whilst finishing my essay between 1 and 7 in the morning(somehow I got too distraced during the day and decided to make a night of it with Sex Pistols, Coffee and Pacman) about musical theatre companies and funding, I came across this quote by Sir Georg Solti who runs a foundation for musicians:
"My life is the clearest proof that if you have talent, determination and luck, you will make it in the end. NEVER GIVE UP. "

And these are the words Cro, a lovely follower of my blog left for me as a comment :
This sounds like it could be just the beginning. Stay calm. Stay focused. Stay determined.
Yes, thank you!  

9 March 2011

"When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure." - Peter Marshall

Yesterday was such a lucky day! So many great things happenend, I definitely had my head in the clouds, I got through to the EOT Gig at Thekla next Tuesday and can't wait to perform, so happy about this as it isn't just a gig where you send off your demos and you're performing, no! It's a proper high standard gig, around 80/90 bands were auditioning and only a few were chosen to play at the gig and I'm one of them!!!!!! Paying off, yesyesyes!!! A&R people will be there and we're gonna be filmed. Exciiiiiiiiiiiiited!

"Those who say it cannot be done should not stand in the way of those doing it." Chinese Proverb

4 March 2011

Another packet of painkillers. Another prescription of antibiotics I threw away. Hopeless case. Even my heart starts to ache now. At least flight's booked. Hello. Getting excited actually. After 6 months I'll be back home.

Lass los.
Glück fühlt sich anders an.

I literally had a small emotional breakdown when I've heard the lyrics. In a good way I think. Maybe I will translate it one day. For now, I'll keep listening to it.

3 March 2011

You don't need to justify or explain your dreams.
They belong to you.

A falling star felt from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them
And now it's left me blind

I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

1 March 2011

"He who never lived in immoderateness, can't set limits for himself either. "

Auditions done! Afterwards pub time at 12.30 pm well- deserved, good times, and arriving at next lesson an entire hour late with no excuse. A little punk attitude is alright hey ho, haha!
Such high standard and quality performances this term! Impressed! Love performing, as intimidating as it can get sometimes when you're always being judged on your performances and vocals by other musicians and pros and this every single day, facing criticism. Productive criticism. But even nicer when you get great feedback, then you know you've done it really good! And at the end of the day it's all about fun and enjoying what you doing and I do it so much.
Forgot to tell about Saturday. House party with a roof garden and Dj's. Dancing leads to HAPPY faces. The crowd was amazing. Our jaws were aching.

And this song is killer!! How could I forget about it?! Makes my wildest heart coming out!  RAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!