31 January 2011


why are you leaving me in the lurch
a friend in need is a friend indeed
I don't wanna believe to be wrong about you

Us vocalists had to lead our Artist Development lesson today and teach all musicians about singing, techniques and stuff. Later on we were splitted up in groups and had to perform an acapella version of any song of choice. Ha! We've chosen The Passenger by Iggy Pop, such a legend. It was quite chaotic, difficult to teach non-singers to sing, but well -done to the others for doing it anyway.   
I tried getting into hospital today, but they won't let me. Need to wait, time I don't have. Maybe you need to die first before anybody understands the grave situation. Thanks anyway for the support Gulli, at least someone I can count on.
People say I must have a very happy life, I always smile at everybody. First at all this should be everybody doing, isn't it just a nice feeling when you talk to somebody and the person is smiling at you? I think it makes a person winsome. And secondly I wish it was true. I'm trying but it's not working out at the moment. I'm letting you know though, every smile is true, I'm not faking it. I'm just not that kind of person who needs to pull an anguished face to get attention and sympathy from others. There is no need for everybody to know about my problems but it doesn't mean you know more about life than me.
I found my cousin today! Haven't seen him since centuries but couldn't stop thinking of him through all the years, he was like disappeared. But the other day my mum gave me a call and said he lives in the UK, just the night after I was dreaming of him. And today I could get hold of him, texted him and he texted me back. We're gonna meet up as soon as possible. So excited, can't tell.

 Come alive.

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. Benjamin Button.  

30 January 2011


29 January 2011


Had a vocal course with Massive Attack singer Sarah Jay yesterday,
woop woop!

27 January 2011

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing
are the same thing

Time to let go 

26 January 2011

"The King is the man who can" 
Keith Richards

Yesyesyes! I was performing Black Night by Deep Purple yesterday on stage in my Live Performance Workshop at Metropolis and got 5 of 6 Distinctions!! Yeah baby, it was banging! Well chuffed about that one hehe. Although I never really listened to Deep Purple before, I simply was in my element. Rocking the stage.      

24 January 2011

Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in
[ American Beauty ]

Sex Appeal

And today Betty died. It's a big loss but it's the circle of life. She was a hard-working woman with a big heart and a bigger knowledge but sometimes she didn't know better. Thank you for all the things you've done for us, rest in peace.  

23 January 2011

Andy Warhole

My uncle died today. Even if he might have not been the best guy,
I wish him all the best.

Since we had to write a song in PJ Harvey Style in Songwriting, 
I listen to her again. She gives me strength.

21 January 2011

Grace Jones


Today I had my masterclass with Chris Morrison, the manager of Thin Lizzy, Blur, Gorillaz, Grace Jones,  Pete and the Pirates and so on. Told us a lot of inside information which was really amusing, instructive and revealing as always. He's been working 45 years as a manager in the music business. He's the man. 


20 January 2011


"What are the differences between Mark Zuckerberg and me? I give private information on corporations to you for free, and I'm a villain.
Zuckerberg gives your private information to corporations for money and he's Man of the Year." Julian Assange.

Make it better from Sebastianbap on Vimeo.

19 January 2011

Happiness does not depend on outward things
but on the way we see them.
 Leo Tolstoy

18 January 2011

Life is not having and getting, but being and becoming.
Mathew Arnold

17 January 2011

When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times and to the lastest-                           Henry David Thoreau

this song is about a loved one fighting cancer
I play this song on repeat
makes me feel less alone

16 January 2011

This was like 10 years ago

14 January 2011

Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could, some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in, forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day, you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense - Ralph Waldo Emerson

About time for some harder tunes guys!


13 January 2011

To strive, to seek, to find
and not to yield 

So the question becomes and should be all along, what would you do if you knew you had only 1 day or 1 week or 1 month to live. What life boat would you grab onto? What secret would you tell, what person would you declare your love to? What wish would you fulfill, what exact local would you fly to for coffee?
and What book would you write?

11 January 2011

You can swim all day in the sea of knowledge and still come out completely dry. Most people do. ~Norman Juster

In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity- Albert Einstein

The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt. ~Bertrand Russell

I don't know.
Feeling weird.
So much to think about
and planning ahead.
I've got straight goals
but I'm a spontaneous spirit.
On the other hand
you kinda need to get prepared sometimes
because Denzel says luck is when a opportunity
comes along and you prepared for it.
Music is the healer.
woy yoy yoy, woy yoy-yoy yoy

quaint lyrics

10 January 2011

The idea is to die young as late as possible.  ~Ashley Montagu

I shall not die of a cold. I shall die of having lived. ~Willa Cather

The fear of death follows from the fear of life.  A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.  ~Mark Twain

One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching.

perspectives through water drops, taken from my window

9 January 2011

a made-up language, created by band Sigur Rós , which the sound of the word is a meaning and a story to each individual, thinking only in sighs of emotions

and I need this camera. end of line.   

Dunes from Nick Campbell on Vimeo.

8 January 2011

Pictures from hiking last year in February at 1300m height in the bavarian forest  

 Snow flakes



7 January 2011

I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.
“— Douglas Adams

possibly the coolest name ever
and I was sitting on him while having a ride on the merry-go-round

6 January 2011

"No sleeping. Wise thoughts thinking....lots of lots of quite a lot. Writing them down and sorting by priorities, effects, causes, reasons, backgrounds, consequences, values, feasibility, reality and illusion"- my friend Agnes Lazar

and this photo makes me laugh so much!
HIS face and my mouth full of bread and ketchup!
I discovered this unexpected picture in the bus back home and couldn't stop laughing.

I forgot to write about some other important things happened back in old scotland, like putting the phone in a plastic bag and throwing it on the roof to get signal is one of them. Or water flashing down from the light bulb. Or eating haggis for the first time, the traditional scottish meal. Or me wasted thing passing out on a tree after climbing it and waking up after letting my phone fall or was it my camera?

What I know for sure though, this video is pretty damn cool!

5 January 2011

“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.” -Roald Dahl

Scotland was fantastic. Not only the New Year's Eve party. No. My time on the farm was overwhelming. All those ideas of nature and adventure. Hitchhiking your way through because there is nothing in between. This is where I see myself in the future. After my career. Be self supporter. Having your own build wooden hut, your own vegetables, your own animals, your own land. Look at the pictures and you will understand what I'm talking about.

4 January 2011

Alright, I had the best New Year's Eve party ever!
I think dates like these always have been overrated and I never had like a great party on these days.
Most of them were okay or shit. But this one was different.
This one was giant.
The people in Scotland were fucking alright. All of them. Like really.
I fully enjoyed myself, danced hours and hours and hours, drank my alcohol, took my drugs, had very deep and honest conversations, met fantastic people and had such a bombastic time. Nothingelse then so much love.
I call it life.
So many hugs and kisses for new year. Can't believe it's over. I could start again. Here and now pressing the repeat button.