‎"If the wind will not serve, take to the oars." – Latin Proverb

Yesterday I went to a gig to the O2 Academy in Bristol to see four bands as halfway through the gig the power cut out and all the people were kicked out the building and the whole thing got cancelled. While standing there in a back yard and waiting for something to happen, Bring me the Horizon who didn't get the chance to play, suddenly climbed onto a shipping container outside and decided to start an acoustic set spontaneously in front of 1600 fans. Fucking epic. Kind of historical moment, a once in a life time experience, I mean how often does it happen to witness a hardcore band sitting on a container and playing  their screaming songs in acoustic for the very first time?! Never haha. And this only shows BMTH cared enough for their fans to stay and to try making it up for us for something they had no control over instead of just buggering off. Obviously everybody was gutted not being able to see every band but this performance made my night really! Thanks guys!   


Later on Sam from the Archtiects joined in!

A certain kind of heroism, needed to keep your dream afloat, is wonderful but not enough. A dual heroism is required: courageous dream-upholding and courageous reality testing.

Yesterday first day in Bristol again, lekker braai with friends. Very enjoyable. And we discovered something fascinating on the tree hanging, motionless. Two poplar hawk moths mating. Never seen it before. I forgot my camera but found another picture on the internet.

" Mach dir nicht zu viele Köpfe, am End weißte net mehr welcher deiner ist." Ryan de Rama

A friend with whom I travelled last year to Morocco came up with this wordplay. Translated word by word it means "don't make yourself too many heads (don't get too caught up thinking about it), at the end you won't even know which one is yours." I think that's brilliant, very true.
I love spending time in the sun and getting a tan. Sun is therapy. Tomorrow flying back to Bristol.

Don't follow your dreams

CHASE THEM

Ordinary Madness

Shaved

Right. Went away for few days to see some friends in Munich. They are so mad. They've got this special kind of humour. And that's something what supplies my heart with pure joy. To run around the whole day and to laugh. Doing and saying mad things out of the blue, randomly, just because you're funny. Impulsive behaviour. Not to care, to be silly, to be free, to be child again. This weekend was covered by laughs. Home is where my friends are.

It started on friday. Me and Laura bought a bavaria ticket which you are free to use all day long through the entire county, so we took any random train, got off anywhere and got on anywhere without any plan nor aim and all that for the whole day. We got around pretty much. So much fun. Much better than sitting in a cafe and talking. Something different. At night watching The Life Cycles Movie in a movie theater. Awesome! Afterwards going out, connections, VIP treatment, hell yes.

Next two days Anni and Aga time. I arrived at 2 in the afternoon, literally the first thing we did, was going to the supermarket and buying booze. Celebrating our friendship. Sitting outside in the green and drinking beer. Getting tipsy in the blazing sun. Walking through the city during the day, wine, beer and crazy ideas and actions. Standard. No money for the hairdresser, let's do it ourselves. Back in the flat, shaving my head.    

That's my drawing skills

Dancing till dead through the night till the morning, losing each other, finding each other after six hours accidentally, hilarious situations, sleeping. Hangover, delivery service, movies. Midnight chips around the corner, 2 o'clock beer, serious talk. It's always like that. Wether with or without alcohol. Ordinary madness. Welcome to my life.

Indeed. I've decided to be happy. Even though not everything is perfect. There is ALWAYS a negative and positive side of things. I've spent a life pretty much in hell till I literally run away to the other side of the world and couldn't believe there is such a thing as happiness, beauty and appreciation. But what I also realised is that you can not run away from your problems, even when it might not have been your fault and your escaped the place, it's still inside of you. Back then I even got a bad conscience everytime a tiny moment of joy stroked me, imagine, sick isn't it. So I've been working on what life has destroyed for me.Wasn't much left and it took me some time to cure my soul . But I got over it. I've forgiven and found peace with the past. Of course I still have days full of sorrow, doubts, insecurities, downs, confusion and pain from time to time. That's normal. That's part of the deal. But I no longer let it rule over my life. They just sneak in and happen occasionally and if they see they have no chance to stay forever, they disappear eventually.

There are moments in life that make you

there are moments in life that break you

there are moments in life that influence you

there are moments in life that change you

there are moments in life that challenge you

there are moments in life that inspire you

there are moments in life that crush you

and there are moments in life that destroy you

there are moments in life of total peace and

there are moments in life of total chaos.

Yin and Yang

nothing is permanent, everything is temporary.

Change.Evolution

And what I also learned is not to let your wounds turn you into someone you are not. That's a very important aspect I think. Now there are people they see me smiling and assume I must have no idea about life nor hard times because I seem to be happy all the time. And they look at you as only they know the true life. Now exactly those people still have to learn a lot and didn't get what life is about. It's not about sitting there, pulling a face and drowning in misery and self-pitty and envy the luck of others. And it's certainly not about thinking of having the right to speak to me this way. If I'm happy and you're not, it's not my fault. It's probably just because it hurts to see someone happy. Though when I'm sad and see somebody happy, I'm still happy for this person but that's probably just a character thing. Anyway Jeez, you're the only one responsible for your own luck! It's about making the most out of it, the best out of it, looking at the bright side, it's already hard enough, make it better, easier for you, enjoy. Every one will die one day but then why not die happy or at least die trying?     

"Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone." Pablo Picasso

I've posted some stunning treehouse photos in my last blog. Here's the link for all of them if you're as amazed as I am TREEHOUSES.

Swing to the moon, even if you miss him

you're gonna land on the stars.

Had something like a date yesterday, exciting times :) !



Other than that I found this incredible site full of treehouses. Seriously, a gyspy waggon and a treehouse and my life is complete. I couldn't decide which one is better. Every single one is sick. Here just a few.

EVERY SHADOW IS EVIDENCE OF SUN

HELL YES

Amazing song! So good it inspired me to write an own song. Found it on another blog and can't believe I haven't heard of the Life Cycles Movie earlier. "Chance" brought it about, they're gonna have a Life Cycles Movie Night presented by SCOTT in Munich in about 2 weeks time in this awesome film theater at Sendlinger Tor !!! A special unique occasion. Preordered tickets straight away. Yeah!

Otherwise, spent the weekend at my sister's. First time I saw her new home. Love it. Perfect weather, perfect house. She lives with her boyfriend in a farmhouse, it was a cowhouse in the past and therefore the beams in the walls and the centuries-old stony floor. Everything so rustic. And handmade bed and cupboard. A weekend full of laughs, playing UFC, watching Shutter Island, So so nice.